Weekly Reflections

I've had something of a rough week, y'all. Bad weather, cancelled plans, and it's looking like I'm going to miss a rather big event in a dear friend's life. I tried driving in the snow, but the roads were terrible and I came home as soon as I could make it. I also did something I've been putting off for much too long- I applied for financial aid so I can finish up my transfer degree. I've had lots to feel good about, overall, but stress has been high.

So, what does that mean for my submission? Well, it means that everything becomes harder to do. My Sir presented me with a challenge in my schedule this week- he gave me a "freebie" pass on one task, but stated that if I didn't use the pass, he'd give me a special reward. I'm motivated by positive reinforcement as well as discipline, and I'm a very curious person, so I put the freebie pass out of my mind. I did fairly well for the first part of the week, but once it got cold and snowy, something flipped a switch, and I became a little lethargic. However, I kept up. Today was just brutal. I feel a little bit guilty, too, because I did a bit of laundry today, and asked if I could fold it all tomorrow. Generally, folding is part of the laundry, so I do feel like maybe I shouldn't get the reward. It is, of course, up to my Sir.

Fantasies have revolved pretty heavily around watching him with another woman. We are not polyamorous, so this one stirs up all kinds of issues for me if I really examine it, but as a fantasy.... it is hot. A bit of romantic sensuality has come into play lately, as well. Public play has been floating around- feeling exposed and vulnerable, in front of other people. Of particular note is a sort of soft public humiliation scene that has been in my brain for weeks, now. I'll have to save that for another entry, but I will say that it's only public in the sense that other people would be present. They'd all be "in" on it, so to speak.

Here's hoping for some nicer weather, soon!